Contentment; Repressed urges
Realization; Stolen glances
Growth; Scared thoughts
I’m trying not to get stuck in my head
Every single time.
After the depression
I lost my ability to retain information as efficiently as before.
Yes, it does that to you.
My once perfect memory
Turned, I’m sorry what did you say again ?
Repeat that (3x)
Gonna have to think long and hard about having to remember,
So I don’t forget.
It left with a part of me.
Oh, the once gullible fragile girl?
Replaced that with “proof beyond reasonable doubt before I believe a word of what you’re saying”
And it seemed like a good level up
But now I can’t even convince myself I’m right.
“The world is deceitful, all the evidence is forged”
The other person in my head says
Everything is up for analyzing but I won’t because I’m too tired
All my energy channelled into trying to slow down the unending thought process
Simply no time to waste thinking about things worth thinking about
Cus I spend my time thinking about how I always think about all the things I shouldn’t think about
And I wonder if I’m gonna walk this path forever or it ends somewhere.
I walked out of the dark changed
& there’s a part of my light tinted different
because now that I’ve created a way out ?
There’s always gonna be a way back in.